Awww, I'm sorry about that.
Is there any way you could start asking teachers for help if you don't understand stuff and stay after school?
Last year I kinda struggled with math and the teacher was... well, she was great - a bunch of kids loved her, but she also kept the class paying attention to her - she comes off as scary at first.
This year my math teacher doesn't explain stuff as much so you kinda have to figure stuff out on your own (but the material feels easier)... or ask for help, and idk, I guess she's more approachable and that's really helped.
So if your teachers are varying levels of scariness, you could start out with the most approachable and work your way up or something, maybe?
I've been struggling a bit with band. Because I'm good, I should challenge myself and step outside of my comfort zone or whatever, but sometimes stepping out of my comfort zone brings me a lot of stress and anxiety so uhhh I kinda gotta figure that out. I'm reluctant to do solos and stuff. Like last sheet music I would dread the part as it got closer and closer in the music and when I played it in the concert, well I didn't mess up too noticeably - actually think it went pretty well - but I was shaking (and sweating some) the entire time. And I still want to be trumpet-playing to be fun, but then again, I also want to get better...
Jayhawk's been growing and it's really fun to have him around when he's not being grumpy and growling at me for simply walking up to him. Like last week it was rrrrrrr like almost every day but then this week he's been pretty good, so I guess his grumpiness has passed.
He's about 7-8 months old. He's actually mediumsized - thought he was going to be lab sized, but he's shorter. I'm okay with this because I can still hug him but he's also on the smaller size so he looks like a really big puppy.
We've been taking him to a local dog park each weekend for the past 4-5 weeks even though it's colder but it's fun. There's all these doggies and they're all running around and they all go to the bathroom really weirdly... Some of them are super duper fast and some of them are kinda slow. And some of them are really tiny and really big! Today these two tiny dogs played around me and I bent down and they climbed on my lap - they were very energetic. And I was able to get a picture of this one german shepherd mix (looked mostly like a german shepherd at least) but it had one blue eye and one brown eye and it was just beautiful! It's also really fun when a dog approaches you because it's like yay I made a friend you like me. Jayhawk's a scardey cat and he enjoys people more than the dogs. He'll get chased by dogs that are 5 times smaller than him. He likes to chase, but he doesn't like to be chased. He'll chase you after a good sniffing. If you're a dog and you come up to him you might get some teeth and if you don't go away he might go snap. Hopefully he'll get more comfortable soon... we kinda chose the wrong time to start going to dog parks - should've done as it was getting nicer, not colder. Oh well. Dogs are fun.
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