*plays a piano extremely loudly and sings wildly off key*
If the world is an ocean, then I am a deep and handsome fish
A fish that's drowning
Here's some thoughts AKA me complaining
hnnnnn I'm in a good mood again and it's setting me on edge
This one person constantly criticizes— well, that's not the right word... More like passive aggressively comments on my appearance and what I'm wearing and I usually just shrug it off but this is the person who shamed me out of eating yogurt because I "eat it weirdly".
Like at what level of insecurity do you have to be at that you have to comment on how someone eats yogurt
Anyways I'm finally picking up my grades a little because I decided to care
I'm sick of people in general. Having an assigned seat in the middle of the Airheads doesn't help matters. I don't have the strongest of attention spans and having them constantly talk about Snapchat and what each color of the heart emoji means in certain situations doesn't help. It's exhausting. They try and drag me into the conversation and I get that they probably think they're being nice to the shy kid but I really don't like any of them and because I am the shy kid I don't do anything about it. Not to mention that the classroom itself is a sauna.
Teachers seem to just throw me with the "popular" kids and I don't see the reasoning. Am I supposed to rub off on them so they'll finally shut up? Do they want me to talk more? I don't have the biggest of social circles but the three people I talk to in the class are perfectly fine to sit with.
It's weird, for me at least. I don't want to be shy or quiet or awkward. I'm negatively affecting my grade in Spanish because I never raise my hand. I don't want to be wrong. Everyone gets a lot of stuff wrong. I overthink. It's pathetic; I almost had a panic attack because the teacher told me to pass out papers but I didn't know anyone's names or where they sat.