I've drafted dramatic goodbyes many times, because I knew one day I would have to leave this place. I just wasn't sure when. Now is the time for me to leave, but I'm not really sure how to say goodbye . . .
As the only taekwondo fanatic here, I don't fit in, and I'm only coming here because of habit these days. This place is really stressing me out, and I think I'd be better off without it. I'm drifting away anyway, so it's not that much of a sacrifice.
I know I sound ungrateful for everything you guys have done for me, but I really am grateful. If I'd never come here, I never would have started taekwondo, and taekwondo is what saved me. Thanks to you guys, I found my passion and my future. It's not uncertain anymore. I'm not living in a nightmare anymore.
I'm also giving this place up for martial arts training. Let's be honest here: I'm never going to make the Olympic team or become a poomsae champion if I'm only doing 30 minutes of practice a day. Half an hour also is not enough for a trainee instructor. I have to be stronger than everyone else, and that isn't possible if I don't train a lot more. And I feel sick a lot, and I feel best when I practice. Taekwondo can heal me. I know it can. So I need to spend more time practicing. Until every move of every poomsae (forms) is perfect, until I can spar 1000 matches in a row without getting tired, I can't stop training. That sounds impossible, but I decided yesterday that nothing is impossible. I have no limits. Not anymore.
And I need to understand the Way that is taekwondo. It's a lot more complex than I thought it was (the spirtual side of taekwondo), and I need to really try to understand it in order to truly write a book about taekwondo.
You will see me in the Olympics someday. You will see my books in the bookstore someday. I can promise that.
So this . . . this is my last goodbye. Good luck in life, everyone, and always remain true to who you are. Follow your dreams and never give up. :)
- Samurai/Kyorugi Nareusya Taegeuk-Arashi-Fortis-Takamoto
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- Lahash -
Also known as Samurai
Est. January 2014
Author of the Path of Legends series - coming 2020!
"Fear not in this Time of Chaos, this War of Darkness. For on the horizon, there shines a light, a light brighter than any before . . ."