tHiS iS sO eDgY bRuH!
Anyway, If you ever feel like you need to hide your feelings... do it. Sure, it'll hurt, but it's better than burdening those around you and embarrassing yourself. Wait, don't do that - that's counterproductive, isn't it?
I advise you to find some friends who you can really be yourself with- no, that probably won't work either.
Here's a foolproof plan: drown yourself in memes. Make yourself the living embodiment of a meme o that people don't take you seriously. Then you can talk about your problem without anybody taking it literally - no. Just... no.
Sorry, I have terrible advice, Do not do any of these. I have no secret and, quite frankly, I'm too tired to be giving inspirational speeches. It's been a really long, rough day.
This really isn't the place to be talking about ways to not bottle up your feelings. We're kids, young teenagers, after all. Seek help from an older role model instead. We don't know the lasting effects of our decisions yet.