if you're planning on ignoring me, at least give me a heads up.
but hey, if you're even read this far, congrats.
it's one thirty in the morning. i have no idea what im doing
i know that in your eyes, im probably always gonna be that clueless little kid. the one that's afraid to ask for something she wants, and doesn't even know the meaning of family.
family, in my eyes, can't be measured in words. because family isn't words. it goes beyond anything we'll ever be able to understand. yeah, maybe it's stupid reading this now. maybe it's always just gonna be stupid to read what i say.
it's kinda like home isn't a place, it's a person.
maybe i just act stupid. but this is all based off of maybes.
our family isn't a maybe.
if i had to give it a color, i couldn't. because it's not a color.
if i had to give it a smell, i couldn't. because it's not a smell or special scent.
maybe nobody but the good Lord above knows what everything means in the dictionary. especially family.
but your family has shaped you. you know it. i know it. everyone knows it.
family is pain. family is happiness. family is tears and surprise dinners. warm blankets and weird dances in the car to weird music that your mom really won't be quiet about because "what kind of music do you listen to?"
family.. family is imagining a couch and dogs and blankets and.. and beverages. climbing trees and Nerf fights and feedback.
no matter how hard i try, family will continue to be a mystery to me.
yeah, Mariah probably knows a lot more about family than I do. She has a lot more experience and actually gets to talk to her family.
I'm sorry I never told you. It wasn't very nice of me, but Mariah didn't really want me to say anything. Can you forgive me?
i love you Kaylee. and you know that. i can't promise you that ill be the best all the time. heck, I can't even promise you the definition of family by the time im twenty. but i can try. im willing to try because of you.
i guess that we'll make it through this. twice as strong...?